Tuesday, March 31, 2009
finally! the conclusion of x project!
(heaves a hugeee sigh of relief)
it has been an
interesting experience since the group was formed till it was disbanded.
it started with all members being on equal ground.
& then it seems as if A & me were the ones having conflicting ideas on how the project should be done, whereas B & C will watch in silence.
& i thought since A's so aggressive and assertive she'll produce quality work.
that turned out to be quite a bad assumption. the work was sloppy, and i never could have imagined how someone/some people will think that it is okay to present like that. didnt it strike them that it was rather chui? or they couldn't care less?
& then comes the power shift. the tables started to turn & i took control. not that i enjoyed it; it was tiring, but i thought it was necessary as i couldnt put myself to trust them so much anymore.
& surprisingly, they allowed me to do that. maybe they've been cursing me behind my back but at least they did not oppose to my ideas or my suggestions, even though i proposed to move in a direction that ws quite radically differnt from where we were originally going. if we even knew where we were going in the first place.
it was tiring & it was no fun, but i take ownership of the project. if it turns out well i'll be so damn proud. if not.. i think my confidence will take a bad hit and i will probably hide somewhere no one can find me. hur hur.
forEVER at 3/31/2009 01:46:00 PM