Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Reality Check

SORRY I AM IDEALISTIC. THE WORLD IS IMPERFECT & I FORGOT TO TAKE THAT INTO ACCOUNT.

forEVER at 7/21/2009 07:47:00 PM

Sunday, July 12, 2009

i know too many zai people who are pursuing zai dreams and doing zai things, that sometimes i cant help but ask myself if im doing enough, dreaming enough.

i wish i have the passion to heal the world, or the linguistic prowess to be a lawyer, or is sufficiently numerically astute to thrive in the lucrative financial industry.

but it seems like the only field that is immediately open to me now that will potentially excite me is the field of marketing, which, unfortunately, doesnt seem to belong to the zai league. of course, such is a very superficial view. zai is subjective, and remuneration is but the only way to measure the zai-ness of any occupation.

this is further reaffirmed during my visit to L'oreal on Friday to interview Willi and Darren as required for my job.

they broadened my definition of zai. even though they are no doctor, no lawyer, and no financial analyst, they are nevertheless awe-inspiring in their own way. at least, they changed my perception of a marketeer. talking to them completely blew me off; they exude such confidence, poise and charm in their every move, and i can feel their passion and drive even as they speak. if they are examplary marketeers, i sure have a long way more to go.

after the session, marketing became an even more attractive option for me as marketing at work is really not as narrow as i thought it is. more importantly, i became inspired to be someone who can present myself as well as them :)

forEVER at 7/12/2009 11:58:00 PM

Saturday, June 27, 2009

FLY AWAY

dsg, i'm missing you this very moment ):

e music was too deafening that i felt like i was screaming into the mic. not as wonderful as i thought i would be, but i guess it could qualify as a so-so performance. at least i din po yin! neither did i forget my lyrics. but maybe i shd stick to ballads because i dun have to dance that way. and laoshi was one of the judges omgomgomg.

one less thing to worry about! and im glad to have the chance to stand on the stage today :)

forEVER at 6/27/2009 10:53:00 PM

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

4th day since he's gone for jakarta. i think i'm beginning to recall how it feels like before my first ever valentine. when he was by my side i wondered how i got by all the while without a partner.

kind of nervous over my upcoming kovan superstar semi finals this saturday! i'm going to try something new- i'll be performing my first ever non-ballad! at a semi finals! in front of so many people at kovan shopping mall!

the first time i joined a singing competition with ___! just in case ___ doesnt like me to reveal his/her name. wasnt too hopeful because i didnt really prepare for the competition. maybe coz i was gonna sing the oh-so-familiar yi ge ren sheng huo, and maybe coz i saw it as more of a very fun thing.

the judging during the auditions was quite interesting. 3/4 green lights means a direct entry into semis, whereas 0/1/2 green lights means you're into the waiting list. while we were waiting for our turn to go onstage we saw so many people who could sing but were on the waiting list! thankfully, the judge who gave me comments apparently gave me positive feedback on the whole and i got 2 green lights!

not bad a performance given my level of preparation! and i thought it was over. zero hopes and zero expectations. i think i was too busy with everything else to be bothered over it. and then, results were out a few days later and i realised i was in! i was 1 of the 14 revived from waiting list! out of 161 contestants, a total of 55 made it into the semi finals. not bad at all! i wonder which judge thought so highly of me and decided to give me a chance.

gonna compete with all the impre champions and zai people. all the familiar names in the list of semi-finalists! i hope to put up a good performance :)

forEVER at 6/24/2009 11:29:00 PM

Sunday, June 21, 2009

fugly )))))))))))))):

and i'm sad!

esp when this is a once-in-lifetime opportunity and experience that i thought i wouldnt have again after i didnt take part in hall pageant. like all other girls, i want it to be as beautiful a memory as possible.

but it certainly is tainted now with my fugly outfit, fugly hair and fugly makeup ): oh biang outfit, strange hair, and funny makeup. i think all of a sudden i prefer dressing myself up and doing my own hair and makeup. you see, i have all the strangest features combined together, and only i best know what suits me and what doesnt. i should have voiced out my displeasure over my hair and outfit and see what can be done. SILLY ME.

OKAY BAD THINGS ASIDE.

dress-fitting on wed was quite fun. if not because of the lousy clothes i got, i would have enjoyed it even more. i only tried on 2 pieces, and those were the 2 pieces i got. unfair!! but i must say those cheongsams cost a bomb! hmmm, if i set up a shop that sells wedding gowns, i will make sure my customers get the piece that looks the prettiest on them xp

then it was the photoshoot today. it's the first time we got to see the guys. i think i have quite a nice partner! :D okay partner, let's GAMBATE!! anyway, i was rather horrified when i realised we're only gonna shoot in our casual outfit, which is my obiang ah ma outfit!! i thought me nt liking it is bad enough; my make up artist has reaffirm the fact tt my outfit is fugly by telling me that she doesnt like it either. damn sad! esp when i looked at the pretty outfits that everybody else has. and who the hell sweeps bangs to the side?? ANYWAY. OTHER THAN THAT. photoshoot was quite an eye-opening experience, despite my dislike of taking photographs. couple shots were especially fun! with all the poses and stuff. we shall go the 大男人小女人路线. LOL! and the outdoor shots. so fun!

though i dun really wanna see the photos :(

more updates on the journey again! i want to have fun fun fun and i dun wanna be affected by these again. i hope everything will be better the next time.

if only you can be here to tell me that everything is okay. have fun in jakarta!

forEVER at 6/21/2009 01:08:00 AM

Sunday, May 24, 2009

7

to celebrate our 7th month anniversary, we played 食字路口. 情侣版 :D



starting with 芒果cheese蛋糕！supposedly. the mystery cake that i helped in baking! in the capacity as the baker's assistant's assistant's assistant.


to 高级烤鸭！it's not as astas as it seems- just plain roasted duck-m
ade-astas because otherwise the game would not continue -.-





鸭喉- some rubbish we came up with to link to the next dish!


厚蛋烧！


烧卖！

麦片虾


虾酱鸡
鸡翅膀

-images not available-
(the truth is, we dint get them coz it's either not available, or we were too bloated)

螃蟹米粉！
the ultimate, muahahaha! actually, i think this is the whole purpose of the game ^^

forEVER at 5/24/2009 06:35:00 PM

Saturday, May 23, 2009

New Year Semester Resolution
1. Self-discipline
Limiting commitments is one way to make it easier, but definitely not the most important way. Time management is the CRUX. The self-discipline to prioritise. If I must study, STUDY! Devoting enough time to it is necessary.
2. Personal Development
Exercise my left brain more frequently. Develop eloquence and learn to carry myself professionally with poise and confidence!

forEVER at 5/23/2009 12:54:00 AM